Rethink, Remind Rebirth

little linaOur deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. – Nelson Mandela

Every time I go to my accupuncturist I read the above quote, as it is pinned to the wall. At first when I read it I struggled with the term God… Now months later I realize many things; God is a word and it may not be my word but the message is the same. My word may something more like “love” or “truth”… But aside from my achilles heel, which is getting stuck on the word or the term rather than the message, what I NOW feel about this qoute is that it speaks to at least part of the “truth” behind the cancer that has invaded my body.  I have NEVER been one to toot my own horn. I have never been able to accept compilments. Well, I would accept then gracefully and humbly, but not accept them into my person, into my perception of self. Frankly, I couldn’t even read and relate to the Mandela qoute until the last couple weeks. So what changed? Time and work and shock, mentally.  As well as a humungous dose of listening and reading YOUR words ideas and thoughts. I love and admire everyone of you so much. Seriously, I do. I have no problem telling you that I think you are the “bees knees”. But I couldn’t tell my self that I was the bees knees too. BUT then the conundrum right? Why would you, all you amazing people, be friends with me if I wasn’t the “bees knees” as well?

On May 7th Adrian and I met with my liver surgeon, Dr. Ferrone. She is a very confidence instilling person.  However, she told me the statistics and the extent of the surgery and I left badley shaken. Back to the beginning diagnosis is near to where I fell, but worse. Instead of panicking that I may die over a short time (whether months or a few years), I suddenly was thrown into a panic that I am going to die more speedily, whether on the operating table or soon after from liver failure. Panic, pain hearthache… worrying mostly of how my kids would cope without me and what they would miss. What? Okay loves this is how this paragraph relates to the previous. What would they or any one else miss out on if I was not the bees knees?

So guess what? Turns out I am the bees knees, and I don’t feel bad saying it anymore, I am not saying I am better than anyone else. What I am saying and feeling is that I am a good woman, a really great mom,  a creative, thoughtful person with good sense of humor and am happy with who, how and what I am.  I may not have had any typical career goals, but I believe now that my life has been ruled by finding, providing, experience and (giggles allowed) making LOVE. More recently, say the last 8 years, I have also been on a quest to live, speak and expect TRUTH. Some of you have been subjected to more truths than maybe they were ready for… heheh.

So here is my TRUTH: I am scared beyond measure about running this next gauntlet. I have my awesome green and yellow Jamaican Puma track shoes, bought with the intention of sprinting through this, moving quickly and healthily. But the thing that makes me calmer is the the LOVE I feel and get from all of YOU. The verbalization of your belief that I will get past this, that it is not my time to depart,  AND to FEEL our hearts beating together in our chests so strongly when we hug, as if you are channeling LOVE and strength to me. The words that; it is a good omen that this surgery is on my 40th birthday… a rebirth for the second phase of my life… The words you send in notes, emails, letters, phone calls… I believe in your words, your love and the prayers.  I believe WE are amazing and that the positive energy you focus on me might well just be like the hundredth monkey theory (“by generalization it means the instantaneous, paranormal spreading of an idea or ability”).

Three things I ask of you:

1) make a list of all the ways you are: “brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous”, and then send me a couple of the goodies, even though already know the ways I think you are brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous.

2) Try to (at least once a day) temper your judgement of other people, especially those closest to you, for they are often the ones who get the most friction (they’re safe…they love you)… temper it and replace it  with honest appreciation and love. Bad habits are hard to break… whew don’t I know it.

3) If things go wrong (NOT my plan) know that I absolutely adore you, every single one of you. Promise to tell my kids stories of us and our adventures, tales of me, and of them.

That being said, I expect visits laughter and party planning in the very near future.

mama & heikke kiss

“Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear.” -Ambrose Redmoon

44 Responses to “Rethink, Remind Rebirth”

  1. Jonah Says:

    This is so shitty. I am really sorry you have to live this horrible nightmare.
    Having said that, soon it will be over and then I look forward to destroying your new liver as we booze it up until we are old, old, old.

    love you.

  2. Andrew Says:

    Always thinking of you. Fire up, phoenix, there’s another forty years to get on with!

    A+M+M+J

  3. Tracey Says:

    Touche my love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Ask Adrian about the big discussion we had last night about “not being judgemental”.
    Lola woke up this morning with such excitement to see Heikke throwing his arms around her. Their 2 shiny little faces grinning from ear to ear. Would have made you cry!
    That’s what it’s all about. Love Love Love!

  4. kate Says:

    i can really only follow that unbelievable passage with one err three words
    “I LOVE YOU”
    “I love you”
    “i love you”

  5. Sarah Says:

    You are so strong Lina in both spirit, body and mind. I know this week must be surreal for you; but, reading your posting I see such clarity and wisdom that I know you have a firm grasp on reality and you are ready to push through this next step with all your being. Jess, Con and I are all envisioning you healthy and strong. Sending you much love, dear friend.
    xxx S.

  6. your mom Says:

    Oh, Lina. You so touch my heart. What can one say? How much? How little? Oh well…forgive me but I have to ramble into your life here…
    You make me think of Hedda Gabler in Ibsen who said, “Home is a nest in the heart of someone you love.” Right now, you are nested and nestled deep in the warmth and protection of my heart—just as you once were nested in the warmth of my belly 40 years ago. And I can’t help but think back. Lina…ready, waiting to take in the magic of the world, letting me know day in and day out with those beautiful little feet pressing out from within the nest of my womb, that you were bursting with life and ready to get on with it. And when you were born after such a hard journey for us both, little did I know as I gazed at your open-eyed tiny face that day of May 21st, 1969, you would someday face cancer.
    Because I have known you longer than any human on earth! I want you to know what I know about you after all these years beyond question. You are going to succeed and get safely to the other side of this. You are—with the help of a brilliant surgeon, Dr. Ferrone, who cares deeply for you—going to receive the ultimate birthday present on Thursday…the gift of renewed health and absolute hope for that long, delightful future you and I, the day you were born, always imagined you’d have. Your spirit and strength, your family’s love that stretches far and wide, the love of a brilliant pastiche of hundreds of loving friends, and your amazing team of surgeons—all will deliver you back home safely. I love you Lina…beyond measure. xxxoox Annie

  7. Heather Says:

    Matt and I have been thinking about you daily, Lina, and sending an abundance of warm, bright, magical and healing arctic summer sunshine to you from our hearts.

    I feel so deeply that while you are healing from your surgery (which, by the way, your body is going to accept so lovingly and use to flush away everything it does not need), you are going to be able to continue to reclaim your health and strength and stay super positive. Love heals and you both embody it and are surrounded by it…everything you have been writing in this blog is amazing.

    What a week this must be for you and Adrian so please know that Matt and I are with you in a huge way in spirit even though we are so far away in Alaska. We are looking forward to visiting all of you in December! xoxo

  8. Lizzie Says:

    Hiya Lina,

    What a beautiful entry. We are thinking, thinking, thinking of you out here in New Mexico as much as we are knowing that everything will be well. We have faith in your body, faith in your health, faith in your liver’s amazing regenerative powers, and no faith whatsoever in the stupid cancer which can now go deep six itself somewhere.

    Can’t wait for you to feel heathy and past all this. Then you must come see us, yes?

    All the love in the world,

    Lizzie, Jon, and Dash

  9. Dorine Tans Says:

    Dearest Lina,
    Being Dutch I have never understood the expression about the bees knees. What have they got to do with anything ? Oh well, it doesn’t matter.
    What matters is: feal the fear and do it anyway.
    What I admire in you, Lina, is that you appear to practice what Deshimaru, a Zen teacher, tought: you must concentrate upon and consecrate yourself wholly to each day, as though a fire were raging in your hair.
    I’ll burn candles for you on Thursday. Did you know it is Ascension Day? May the cancer descend into oblivion and may you ascend fresh, strong and new to start the next half of your life.
    Loads of love, veel liefs, may the Force be with you.
    Dorine

  10. Leigh Says:

    Listen Bitch… your to strong to let this take you down… besides were not done with you yet… you hear me… tackle this like a patriots line backer… failure is not an option…. you hear me?? Besides on a softer note those Docs have to tell you the worst possible scenerio… perhaps she does not understand all the cosmic, spiritual, magical, down right naughty forces at work in your life… were not done with you yet…. never doubt…. you will suceed…. this will all be a bad/strange/beautiful dream from the past soon and you will emerge even more beautiful then you were before.. (which is hard to imagine)… I love you and your husband and little family and will be ever present with the cosmic magic on thrusday… Happy rebirthday lina.. may it be the greatest day ever…
    love love love
    leigh, Morgan, Eli and Theo

  11. Connie Feydy Says:

    Lina, beautiful through and through, dear star. Thank you for all your writing. It gives me permission to love myself, which really does help, and with that I can hopefully do the same for others. I think of you as a candle that lights wick after wick with its own flame. Yours is mesmerizing- sometimes playful, sometimes serene, always giving others light. I read your mom’s comment and it’s the most loving thing I’ve ever read. I understand it and it makes me think of my mom’s love for me (she died in ’93 when I was at Bennington). I have you nestled in my heart, too, Lina. You are most definitely the Bees knees, not to mention the turtle’s girdle, the ants pants…the…etc. xoxoxo

  12. Alexandra Newmark Says:

    Lina — Your writing reaffirmed once again what an incredibly strong, beautiful and generous spirit you are. You will get to the other side of this safely and only stronger. Dave and Lucas and I are all sending you all our light and love. xxoo
    Alex

  13. Jane Says:

    There’s no doubt about it. Can’t go over it. Can’t go under it. Can’t go around it. There is no way around it. For whatever reason, it was not meant to be an easy week for you, Lina, and in our own skins it is not so for any of us who log on here. But what a loving group it is, dear Dear Deer Lina. Love to match that which you give. Make no mistake about that one which I say from well planted feet, or more literally tush upon this chair while you go through a jungle, up a cliff and through a snake pit tippy toeing towards the treasure. Arrrrrrrrrh. Maybe Jamaica helped to make you more prepared for this week.

    Thank you again for the Kind and Gentle Strength of the Wisdom of this Blog.
    See you soon, love, moi

  14. Dorine Tans Says:

    Birthday present for you: Thank you so so so much for making my brother Hans such a proud and happy grandfather.
    Liefs, Dorine

  15. Ann Wyman (Nana) Says:

    You are a powerful strong woman Lina, whom we admire so much. We are here especially for Georgia as she deals with her challenges. We love you and are rooting for you. As I was writing you a birthday card I thought I’d check out your website, and was I blown away!

  16. ellen Says:

    I love you. So stinking much.

  17. Sharon Fantl Says:

    beautiful woman. you just charge forward and believe. while we never wished this experience on you and your family, know that you will survive and thrive for many years more, and that you’ve already amazed us every step of the way.

    you are one of those people in my life that i think i always look to- sometimes as someone i love and am honored to know and who i appreciate- and often as someone who wholly inspires me to be wonderful, to enjoy and be loving and work harder, try harder.

    i keep imagining you waking up from surgery with your crazy jamaican kickers on, and it makes me giddy.

    from the first time i saw you and adrian together in harvard sq, i just thought you were the most beautiful woman (and that adrian found himself a real gem), all before i even knew you. and you honestly just keep getting better and better. i look forward to seeing you next week when i’m in boston… til then, take a deep breath, and go for it. we’re with you!

  18. Jen Says:

    Lina – I was so touched by your entry. Know you are in my thoughts and I’m sending you and your family all my love.

  19. annie zalinger Says:

    lina,

    i have just this minute figured out how to use this blog….or at least i
    think perhaps i have! not too technically challenged…i have thought all along as i read you wonderful entries that there must be a way to respond.
    it is never too late to learn a new trick!

    we will be thinking of you tomorrow as you put on your bravest face ever.
    this has been a long hard road, but you are indefatigable and will keep
    travelling along. miracles happen every day. tomorrow and the weeks ahead will be your turn.

    happy birthday and may it begin a year of health, happiness and fun.
    much love,
    annie (& flip)

  20. Marci Says:

    Lina,
    Thank you so much for sharing your experience with everyone…you are truly an amazing and strong person. I miss having you in my life on a daily basis…..high school was such a social time 😉 I look forward to getting together with you soon.
    Happy Birth(and re-birth)day!
    Hugs,
    Marci

  21. Lindsey Schust Says:

    Hi Lina,
    we’ve got the drum gods sending out powerful good vibrations and healing energy to you. May only that which is of the Highest Dude come to you! We’ll be with you in spirit.
    love, LINZ

    “I am that I am, I am light, I am love, I am peace, I am beauty.
    I am one with mother earth, I am one with the father and his creation, I am one with everyone within the reach of my voice. In this togetherness, we ask the divine intelligence to eradicate al negatives from our thought, from our words and from our hearts and from our actions. And so be it.
    ASHE ASHE ASHE!!!!!!!” -Baba’s prayer

  22. Susanne Achtenhagen Says:

    Lina,
    Bless you. You are one amazing woman. Thanks for sharing your light with me. Rachel H. just turned me on to your blog. You will be in my heart forever now! We are all in this game we call life together.

    With love and courage and light,
    Susanne

  23. Francisca Matos Says:

    Sweetest Lina:

    All your blogs bring tears to my eyes because of how heartfelt and beautifully written they are.

    Re: the word God vs. Truth — no matter what you call it — the essence that can’t be destroyed — is inside you. That’s what makes you beautiful. Here’s a quote from my teacher Prem Rawat that I remembered when I read your latest blog:

    “If you go into that beauty from where the source of all beauty is, you can’t even imagine how beautiful it is. Within you is the source of that beauty. I can’t tell you how blissful it will be, how beautiful it will be. It’s completely unimaginable.”

    So, trust the love inside you and toot your own horn as loud as you can.

    Lots of love… Fran

  24. Elena Says:

    I join my heart with all the others here in wishing and willing you well tomorrow and all the rest of all the tomorrows after that day.

  25. Robert Grasmere Says:

    LOVE YOU LINA, thinking of you everyday, and have been THINKING OF YOU EVERYDAY from NYC – even though it feels like I’ve been working around the clock here in New York you have not been out of my thoughts and cares at all. Jennifer and I are with you spiritually and in all the ways we can, sending you healing and love. Robert

  26. Curtis Koren Says:

    Lina — this is my favorite poem about the joy of the journey, no matter what beasts crop up. You are a beautiful voyager, and I know you understand about those pleasurable perfumes and all the rest on the road to a personal Ithaca. We are thinking all positive things towards you tomorrow on your birthing day!
    Love to your and all of yours,
    Curtis and Ed
    ITHACA

    When you start on your journey to Ithaca,
    Then pray that the road is long,
    full of adventure, full of knowledge.
    Do not fear the Lystrygonians
    And the Cyclops and the angry Poseidon.
    You will never meet such as these on your path,
    If your thoughts remain lofty, if a fine
    emotion touches your body and your spirit.
    You will never meet the Lystrygonians,
    The Cyclops and the fierce Poseidon,
    If you do not carry them within your soul,
    If your soul does not raise them up before you.

    Then pray that the road is long.
    That the summer mornings are many,
    That you will enter ports seen for the first time
    With such pleasure, with such joy!
    Stop at Phoenician markets,
    And purchase fine merchandise,
    Mother-of-pearl and corals, amber and ebony,
    And pleasurable perfumes of all kinds,
    buy as many pleasurable perfumes as you can;
    visit hosts of Egyptian cities,
    to learn and learn from those who have knowledge.

    Always keep Ithaca fixed in your mind.
    To arrive there is your ultimate goal.
    But do not hurry the voyage at all.
    It is better to let it last for long years;
    and even to anchor at the isle when you are old,
    rich with all that you have gained on the way,
    not expecting that Ithaca will offer you riches.

    Ithaca has given you the beautiful voyage.
    Without her you would never have taken the road.
    But she has nothing more to give you.

    And if you find her poor, Ithaca has not defrauded you.
    With the great wisdom you have gained, with so much experience,
    you must surely have understood by then what Ithacas mean.

    –CP Cavafy
    translated by Rae Dalven

  27. lucy o'connor Says:

    lina – your writings are so poignant and honest. I am so very moved by your extraordinary courage in the face of the challenge you have faced and will face even moreso tomorrow. I join with all the others who care so much about you and have sent their warm wishes for tomorrow and many more tomorrows.
    love, lucy o’connor

  28. Hillary Says:

    I’m so glad you see you are indeed the bees knees, Lina! And I’m grateful your post reminds us all to get out of our own ways a little bit. You have infinite courage. I’m sending blessings and light to you and your whole family tomorrow.

    Love,
    Hillary

  29. Grace Says:

    Beautiful Lina,
    You truly are the bees knees, the icing on the chocolate cake, the scent of lilacs, the song of the oriole, the warmth of the sun rising parting the early morning mist, the deep rich nourishing earth, the wisdom of love and truth all wrapped up in your amazing self. Your strength is great, and will be magnified by the strength sent to you by all of the wonderful people who know you and love you. I know we will all be with you, in spirit, if not in body, tomorrow, and the next day and the next, and the next …….All my love to you and to all of your peeps! BIG, BIG LOVE!!! Grace

  30. Debby Kelley Says:

    Oh Lina, by going through so much, you have given us all so much. I am new to blog world, but am so touched by what you share with us; your experiences and beautiful thinking and grace about it all. The shower of love and great expectations for your recovery, the hopes of a vodka or two in your future, and more sinister bunny pictures, is coming from my heart to you, as it is from everyone who is privileged to know you and your bees knees. Happy ReBirthday, tomorrow.
    Love,
    Debby

  31. Jim Says:

    I am so glad your Mom emailed us and told us of your web site. You are a beautiful young lady and reading your journey brought tears. Tears of sorrow, tears of joy, tears of respect, tears of admiration, and tears of a solidarity for you and all who love you and are pulling for you, Although our direct thread to you is minor, please know and believe that we pull for you with all our hearts.
    Jim and Elaine

  32. Lynn Ferguson Says:

    Lina,

    We’ve met only a few times, but thru your blog, I’ve come to know you. You are an extremely talented writer and your insights into the ordeal you are facing have been truly amazing. You are an inspiration to those of us (me) who believe we have things in our lives to complain about. May all the healing energy in this world of ours be focused on you tomorrow. May you receive the best birthday gift of all!

    Much love to you and your whole family,
    Lynn Ferguson

  33. Jesse Says:

    Hi Lina,

    First of all, here is a big, big hug! Thank you for all the amazing writing!

    I’m sitting here in my slippers and underpants at the computer in the middle of the night in London. I’m done with all the things I needed to do, and now I’m rotating my heart and mind so they send a continuous beam of high velocity, full-strength love your way for the next few days. It was so wonderful to see you recently. It meant so much to me to spend some time together with you, with you and Adrian, with you and your kids. I know it was great for you to see me too (since I’m the bees-knees too).

    I had a wonderful time in New England – I had a lot of time with my parents and sister, I saw a lot of old dear friends, I got to catch up with my aunts and uncles who live near to you, but especially important to me was that I got to see you several times. I just love you Lina! I’ve looked up to you and admired you since we were little kids, and I still do. You introduced me to so many things that are still important parts of my life, and you were one of a very few friends who I was close to when we were kids. You’ve always shown me how to do things I didn’t know about. And you still are. You always make the hardest path up the big rock look easy! When I read the things you’ve said in this blog, I’m completely blown away by your courage, personal strength, clarity, vision, and thoughts. I find myself wanting to emulate you – a familiar feeling that goes back to when I was four years old. Thank you for all the ways you’ve been a part of my life. You have a lot to be proud of. You really are the bees-knees, Lina!

    People I know don’t usually make it into my dreams, except for a few cameos in supporting roles where a complicated scenario is supposed to arise. For this reason, it came as quite a surprise to meet you in my dreams not once but quite a few times. You see, you’ve been visiting my dreams in the past few months. So, I’ve decided to do my best to visit yours in the next few days. I’ll bring the same deep residing compassion and friendship that you did when you came to me in my dreams. I’ll share deep insights and joy at life, just like you did in my dreams. I’ll be good company when you need it, just like you have been in my dreams.

    We’ll be sending our love and thoughts to you!

    Good luck! No matter what, I promise to do the three things you ask in this message!

    It’s nice thinking of you tonight! My heart is warm, even though I’m in this draughty flat in North London in my socks and undies.

    lots of love and reindeer,
    Jesse

    ps- It was really great for Helen to see you. She’s been reading your blog closely since it started and she’s sending you her love and cascades of white light!

    pps- Regarding step 1… that is, writing down the lots of ways that I’m brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous… Here’s a bit – My imagination is an endless fountain of joy. My kindness and love is almost unbeatable. When I hear music, I’ve always got secret music playing in my head as accompaniment, and it’s unbelievable great stuff. Someday, I’ll master an instrument or tackle music composition, and let the world hear it. I can convince hundreds of people to do something that seems impossible, and I do it by speaking directly to them with honesty, vision, and compassion. Wherever I go, community arises, and connections are fostered. The events I’ve taken part in become memorable. There’s more, but that’s some of it. As for Step 2… yes, I’ll work on tempering my judgement and replace it with honest appreciation and love each day. Actually, I think this one will come easily to me, and it’s definitely a good thing to do.

    ppps- I’ve got a pretty direct line to the godhead, so I’ll also steer some universe energy your way. That’s no small thing, but I can do it for you. See, I’m the bees-knees too, and with Sami ancestry to boot!

  34. Pam & Harry Says:

    Happy Birthday, Lina….We will see you sometime in the next few days.
    In the meantime….I have a Navaho prayer for you that has sustained me
    thru tough times…..
    I will be happy forever, nothing will hinder me;
    I walk with beauty before me,
    I walk with beauty behind me,
    I walk with beauty below me,
    I walk with beauty above me,
    I walk with beauty around me,
    My words will be beautiful. (Myth of Beauty Way, Female)

    You are beautiful in so many ways and will always be so. You are in our
    hearts tonight. Love, Pam and Harry

  35. Your Mom Says:

    Happy re-birthday dear “dancing Lina”. What a sight to see you last night in your short flight of freedom—after bolluxing up your medication timing and having to wait and hour—run up over the footbridge towards the walkway at the edge of the Charles River. You had all your family in tow(little ducklings following the leader) to revel in the beautiful evening, to visit, to skip and dance along the lapping shoreline, twirling, polka-ing, laughing as if your and our world couldn’t be more perfect. Georgia, Adrian, Lorna all swept into your spinning joy and we the “elders” watching in sheer delight. You glowed. We glowed. We were the light and life of all our lifes. You were a singular beacon of light and always are. Happy re-birthday, Lina. Today will be the beginning of the rest of your wonderful, wonderful life. And we are all here with you and for you as you have been for all of us. I love you! Mama Annie

  36. Hilary Says:

    On this the morning of your re-birthday, the sun is bright, Lina, and and so are my thoughts for you!! Thank you once again for transforming this challenge into a life-affirming lesson for all of us. Light and love to you; you are in my heart today. Hilary

  37. Brooke Says:

    Wow… Annie’s beautiful image has me smiling through tears of absolute joy!!! I can see you so vividly… always…
    how brightly you shine beloved friend….

    I imagine the picture from space… how it would look today… the millions of points of light dotting the globe, sending incandescently bright tracings to swirl and dance through the ether as that light travels towards Boston, towards you… which is glowing with such brilliance that it’s rendered too dazzling to look at directly, except for through one of those kooky scopes you need to look at an eclipse…
    that picture is the truth…
    in fact.. i’d wager you could power Boston for a good wee while with that lovelight you inspire in all of us…….
    I love you!!!
    xopeace Brooke n’ Gus

  38. annie zalinger Says:

    this is a most beautiful spring day…it is yours. this is the day of enormous energy for you. dance your way to all those tomorrows.
    you are in our hearts.
    annie z

  39. Ann in Woodstock Says:

    Tears. I just drove by your new house and saw you sitting on the front porch smelling the lilacs and watching the kids play in the street. Poppy and Izzy got matching sunglasses at the Pharmacy yesterday and boy they looked cool!
    I am thinking so hard for you. My mom just called and is going to pray all morning for you.
    We WILL have time and I will be sitting next to you on that porch.
    ALL OF MY LOVE
    Ann

  40. Mattie Says:

    Lina, k i cant really write well. Thats probably why i failed my writing class. but i love you with all my heart, your the greatest sister anyone could ever hope for (and i know my friends are jealous cause i have such a bad ass sister) you teach me new things and help me grow into a better person. i miss you and love you and wish i was out there with you. and i will be soon!!!
    love love LOVVEEE!!!!!!!

    and some more love.

  41. Tracey Says:

    my love, it’s 10am & everyone at agassiz is holding your hand, & heart!
    we love you xxxxxxx

  42. Leigh Says:

    love you lina thinking of you today and pushing positive healing towards you…

  43. Leigh Says:

    love you lina thinking of you today and pushing positive healing towards you…

  44. lucy o'connor Says:

    WONDERFUL NEWS, Adrian!!!! Perhaps the curtain has lifted.

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